. >> so then it makes me think, there is this whole media kind of energy around this book but the last time there was this kind of media energy was that, july 2010 when it went down. >> yes. >> people were going back to those places who interviewed you, who were making accusations calling you a reverse racist. the speed which that happened, how does it feel being back in the space now that you do have the whole story? >> it feels good to know that, first of all, that i was able to use that same media in a sense to be able to get the, the story, the right story out. it feels, gosh, i can't explain how great it feels to be able to sit here, to hear the actress really, oh my goodness, i don't know whether you saw me, i was crying a little. it's really amazing. i didn't ever think, i made the decision years ago that i didn't want people to forget my father and what he meant to us. i had no idea i would be able to tell the story in this way. it feels great. >> what's, what's so beautiful this book is i feel like it's more than a book. it is a living, it is a living history. it is like a lov